I had a successful career as a procurement manager and had even picked up a national award as “young professional of the year”. I found this an easy identity to live up to and found that I fitted the stereotype very well. I went to the gym. Enjoyed a somewhat disposable income allowing us to have lovely holidays as well as days out and trips to the cinema. I was ambitious and driven and worked hard – but inside I harboured a secret.
I wanted to be a housewife and stay at home mum.
This was at conflict with everything I felt my success in my career demanded and expected of me. Therefore I kept it quiet. I didn’t tell anyone how I felt. I felt almost fraudulent that I had been so successful in such a short time in a career that I never intended to keep, that giving it all up would seem ungrateful and people would think that I had wasted both my time an effort as well as that of others who had helped and supported me along the way.
The only person who truly knew how I felt was my husband. He has always supported me in my career and he has just as easily supported me in deciding to give it all up, for which I will be forever grateful and feel so immensely lucky.
I am now a house wife and stay at home mum to a seven month old. Instead of the gym I do the “big shop” I stay in and do the housework, and cook dinner. I play and get messy and go for walks. I change nappies and get covered in sick every single day.
My lifestyle is completely different. But I am the same.
I am intelligent and articulate. I am passionate and driven. I just channel these attributes in a different way. I love my family and I love my life.
I am not defined by my job or my title. I am simply me.